Not So Great Start
There's nothing like losing a bit of dignity. Ever hid in a public restroom? I have. Just yesterday. I didn't want to be the first person at dinner at my retreat, so I hid in the bathroom until I heard voices. Pathetic, I know.
If you haven't figured it out yet, I didn't quite fit in with my new coworkers at my retreat. I felt SO out of place. About 2/3 of the staff is at least 45 years old and what I would classify as 'almost white-trash.' There are some fun people, but they don't seem very willing to allow 'newbies' into their mix. I spent two hours of my free time sitting in my hotel room doing homework or talking on the phone with my husband. Then after dinner, I ended up in the hospitality room with everyone, but during the two hours I was there, I said maybe 20 words. They are funny people, but just not...inviting.
I keep trying to tell myself that it was like this in the beginning at my old job, too. Hell, a whole group of people thought I was a 'snob' because I never talked. They didn't seem to realize that I wasn't a snob, I was just painfully shy. I don't want these new people thinking I'm a prude, but my timidness keeps me from jumping right into the mix. God, I hope things get better with time. I don't want to miss my old job like I do right now. It hurts too much.
If you haven't figured it out yet, I didn't quite fit in with my new coworkers at my retreat. I felt SO out of place. About 2/3 of the staff is at least 45 years old and what I would classify as 'almost white-trash.' There are some fun people, but they don't seem very willing to allow 'newbies' into their mix. I spent two hours of my free time sitting in my hotel room doing homework or talking on the phone with my husband. Then after dinner, I ended up in the hospitality room with everyone, but during the two hours I was there, I said maybe 20 words. They are funny people, but just not...inviting.
I keep trying to tell myself that it was like this in the beginning at my old job, too. Hell, a whole group of people thought I was a 'snob' because I never talked. They didn't seem to realize that I wasn't a snob, I was just painfully shy. I don't want these new people thinking I'm a prude, but my timidness keeps me from jumping right into the mix. God, I hope things get better with time. I don't want to miss my old job like I do right now. It hurts too much.
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