Mom
I'm worried about my mommy.
On vacation, her neck became very stiff, and her thumb and finger on one arm went numb. After seeing a doctor when returning home, she found out she has two slipped disks in her spine. She has to have physical therapy three times a week now, and they're even ordering a machine for her to use at home. It's called 'traction,' and it's supposed to realign her spine and hopefully let the 'squishy stuff' between the disks of her spine to snap back into place. The good news is that the doctor ruled out surgery. He says the disks are too small. The bad news is that she 'just has to be patient' and deal with the unbearable pain for a few weeks. She's off work, and though she has over 6 months of sick time accrued, she can't earn her vacation time right now.
As if that weren't enough, she went in for her regular mammogram, and they found something suspicious. They have to perform an 'aspiration' on her breast on Friday. If they draw fluid, then there is no problem. If they don't, then they have to perform a needle biopsy. She has had a scare before during my sophomore year of college, but it turned out to be benign. However, my grandmother (Mom's mother) has had breast cancer twice, and my aunt (Mom's sister) is recovering from treatment for breast cancer as I type.
I am trying to hold it together. I am trying to tell myself that God doesn't give us more than we can handle. I am trying to stay strong. But this is my mom. MY mom. How can I not worry? At times I just push the negative thoughts aside and concentrate on all that I need to do for work. But I know this is just a self-preservation method, and at some point, I'm going to come crashing down.
I just want my mom to be okay.
On vacation, her neck became very stiff, and her thumb and finger on one arm went numb. After seeing a doctor when returning home, she found out she has two slipped disks in her spine. She has to have physical therapy three times a week now, and they're even ordering a machine for her to use at home. It's called 'traction,' and it's supposed to realign her spine and hopefully let the 'squishy stuff' between the disks of her spine to snap back into place. The good news is that the doctor ruled out surgery. He says the disks are too small. The bad news is that she 'just has to be patient' and deal with the unbearable pain for a few weeks. She's off work, and though she has over 6 months of sick time accrued, she can't earn her vacation time right now.
As if that weren't enough, she went in for her regular mammogram, and they found something suspicious. They have to perform an 'aspiration' on her breast on Friday. If they draw fluid, then there is no problem. If they don't, then they have to perform a needle biopsy. She has had a scare before during my sophomore year of college, but it turned out to be benign. However, my grandmother (Mom's mother) has had breast cancer twice, and my aunt (Mom's sister) is recovering from treatment for breast cancer as I type.
I am trying to hold it together. I am trying to tell myself that God doesn't give us more than we can handle. I am trying to stay strong. But this is my mom. MY mom. How can I not worry? At times I just push the negative thoughts aside and concentrate on all that I need to do for work. But I know this is just a self-preservation method, and at some point, I'm going to come crashing down.
I just want my mom to be okay.
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