Pessimism Bites
Ever feel heartbroken, but you can't pinpoint why? Maybe heartbroken isn't the right term. Lonely. Rejected. Broken.
Sometimes, life throws things at you, and you're not sure how to react to them. Sometimes these things are positive: a relaxed day at work, time with friends, an understanding between loved ones with just a raise of an eyebrow.
But sometimes life throws some not so nice things at you. I was positive my house was selling. There was an offer, a counter, another counter, and then acceptance. All that was needed was approval of financing. I never thought that would have been denied. I'm not so upset about my house not selling. I'm more upset about not getting the house I wanted to buy. No, it's not off the market yet. But it's a great house. Fantastic even. And I am sure it won't sit on the market forever. If the timing is not right, my new house I want so badly may not be available once my current home sells.
Maybe there is a reason for this. Maybe I am not meant to move out of this house just yet. Maybe I'm am not meant to move into another, bigger house just yet. Or maybe this is just life throwing another crapball at me.
I'm not a pessimistic person, but tonight, I feel like one. I cannot stop dwelling on the negatives. It wouldn't be so bad if it were just the house issue, but when things fall through for me like this, it is difficult for me not to dig up all the hurts and pains I've experienced in the past.
I'm so tired of being a victim. I'm so tired of feeling weak. Why can't I take a small setback and just move on like normal people do????
Sometimes, life throws things at you, and you're not sure how to react to them. Sometimes these things are positive: a relaxed day at work, time with friends, an understanding between loved ones with just a raise of an eyebrow.
But sometimes life throws some not so nice things at you. I was positive my house was selling. There was an offer, a counter, another counter, and then acceptance. All that was needed was approval of financing. I never thought that would have been denied. I'm not so upset about my house not selling. I'm more upset about not getting the house I wanted to buy. No, it's not off the market yet. But it's a great house. Fantastic even. And I am sure it won't sit on the market forever. If the timing is not right, my new house I want so badly may not be available once my current home sells.
Maybe there is a reason for this. Maybe I am not meant to move out of this house just yet. Maybe I'm am not meant to move into another, bigger house just yet. Or maybe this is just life throwing another crapball at me.
I'm not a pessimistic person, but tonight, I feel like one. I cannot stop dwelling on the negatives. It wouldn't be so bad if it were just the house issue, but when things fall through for me like this, it is difficult for me not to dig up all the hurts and pains I've experienced in the past.
I'm so tired of being a victim. I'm so tired of feeling weak. Why can't I take a small setback and just move on like normal people do????
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