Living Life

I am a very organized person (though my desk at work wouldn't suggest such a thing). I like to know what I'm doing, when, and with whom. I plan, plan, and then plan some more. I am always on time, which usually means I'm early. My whole life has been lived on a schedule. Hell, I even had my son on his due date, despite the fact the doctor said there was no way this baby was going to come on his own, and had set it up for me to be induced. I feel the need to be able to see into the future, and when I can't, I panick.

I have been told that this mindset is not needed. I have been told to live in the moment; enjoy the here and now.

Things aren't perfect. My life is far from flawless. But it's my life, and there are many things in it that make me happy. Truly joyful. Even ecstatic at times. And I know I am more than fortunate to have these moments in time where nothing better could be happening to me.

So I'm going to attempt this new mindset. I'm going to live in the moment. I am going to enjoy the present. I'm going to forget about trying to see into the future, and just start counting the blessings I have right now.