Goodbye My Friend
I had to say goodbye to my good friend Wagon today. It was most likely one of the hardest things I've ever had to do.
I am 30 years old. I should not be losing friends. I am too young. My friend, T, should not be 28 and a widow. Those things just aren't supposed to happen.
But it did happen. And I must face the truth. My friend Wagon will never be here to make me laugh again.
The viewing was yesterday. I thought I would be okay, but then I saw the pictures. There was a picture I had never seen before of Wagon and my son that was just taken in January. They were both smiling with their mouths open, probably from laughing. There was always laughter in the room when Wagon was present. I broke down when I saw that picture, finally realizing that my little boy will never know the joy his "Uncle Wagon" could bring to him.
Today was the funeral. T broke down when they were ready to close the casket. She was laying on his body, and it was painful to hear the sobs that were coming from her lips. I cannot imagine the pain and sorrow she is experiencing right now, and will continue to experience for months to come.
I laughed and cried during the ceremony. His family shared touching moments, and they also shared funny ones.
I know that Wagon will never be here to make me laugh, but he will continue to make be crack up through old memories. He is a part of me always; I just have to close my eyes and picture him. He will reside in my heart until the day I join him in heaven.
It did help to listen to the scripture being read. I know that God has him now, and that he is safe and happy in his eternal life. I hope that eventually T can come to this realization as well. I know it will take time, but I hope that it is sooner than later. I worry about her constantly.
So goodbye, my friend. You will be forever missed. I will continue to mourn you and cry over your death for months, I know. But I also promise to remember and share your hilarious stories and laugh with our friends. You'd want me to laugh, that I'm sure of. I will do my best to take care of your love, T. Her heart is breaking right now. If you can, comfort her in her sleep.
Goodbye, Wagon. Your Eddie sure will miss you.
I am 30 years old. I should not be losing friends. I am too young. My friend, T, should not be 28 and a widow. Those things just aren't supposed to happen.
But it did happen. And I must face the truth. My friend Wagon will never be here to make me laugh again.
The viewing was yesterday. I thought I would be okay, but then I saw the pictures. There was a picture I had never seen before of Wagon and my son that was just taken in January. They were both smiling with their mouths open, probably from laughing. There was always laughter in the room when Wagon was present. I broke down when I saw that picture, finally realizing that my little boy will never know the joy his "Uncle Wagon" could bring to him.
Today was the funeral. T broke down when they were ready to close the casket. She was laying on his body, and it was painful to hear the sobs that were coming from her lips. I cannot imagine the pain and sorrow she is experiencing right now, and will continue to experience for months to come.
I laughed and cried during the ceremony. His family shared touching moments, and they also shared funny ones.
I know that Wagon will never be here to make me laugh, but he will continue to make be crack up through old memories. He is a part of me always; I just have to close my eyes and picture him. He will reside in my heart until the day I join him in heaven.
It did help to listen to the scripture being read. I know that God has him now, and that he is safe and happy in his eternal life. I hope that eventually T can come to this realization as well. I know it will take time, but I hope that it is sooner than later. I worry about her constantly.
So goodbye, my friend. You will be forever missed. I will continue to mourn you and cry over your death for months, I know. But I also promise to remember and share your hilarious stories and laugh with our friends. You'd want me to laugh, that I'm sure of. I will do my best to take care of your love, T. Her heart is breaking right now. If you can, comfort her in her sleep.
Goodbye, Wagon. Your Eddie sure will miss you.
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