Thursday, December 28, 2006

Run, run, run

Do you ever feel like you're running through life, and you barely get a chance to stop and breathe? The past month has been a whirlwind of events, and I just want a chance to sort it all out. Is that too much to ask?

Therapy went well this month. Marcia thinks I'm on the right track. It's nice to hear someone tell you that you're doing a good job. Enough of the "bad girl, evil girl" comments.

Christmas came and went in a blink of an eye. The little one had fun, though I think he's still a bit confused on what went on. It was nice to be with family for a few days and not have to worry about anything else. Presents are nice, too, and I once again was spoiled. But hey, I AM a princess. I NEED spoiling. Who knows what I'd do without some jewels. =)

Now we are thinking of moving. Well, we're a little beyond the 'thinking' phase, considering just a few hours ago, there was a realtor in our house. It's going to be sad leaving this place. There are so many memories here. Our first house together. Our first Christmas as a married couple here. Our first born was brought back to this place. But we need a bigger place, and so we shall leave. It's stressful just thinking about moving, though. I am wrecked with worry about the timing of things. What if our house doesn't sell? What if we find a house we adore (I think we may already have), yet our house is still on the market? We can't afford two house payments. We just can't. AAAAAHHHHHHHH!

So much is on my plate, it's a mystery how my head doesn't just explode.

Friday, December 01, 2006

so NOT fair

Why is it that those who work hard are rarely rewarded? Why is it the ones that procrastinate always end up ahead of the hard workers in the end? And why haven't I learned my lesson and just join the procrastinators?

It's just NOT fair. It's not fair at all. And what makes it worse is when those procrastinators rub their successes in the faces of the hard workers. Must they be so brash about their laziness? Can't they just take their win quietly, and leave those of us who do what we're expected to do alone?